Well, he put himself in jail;

Unbelievable. He was out of jail and on probation..but screwed up his probation and is now in jail for a month until a new court date. The bail this time is 1000 cash. I made him sign a contract when i bailed him out last time, it stated I was not giong to post any more bail, and I was not going to give him canteen money in jail if he puts himselve back in...what do you know..he has called and asked if we can come up with bail  I expalin no...family does not have that much cash..but then he even asked for canteen money...tough love...I said NO..

That' it folks...I am done with my addicted son..and I have a month break  from him but yeass in jail is just around the corner for him...he is destined to spend his life in jail...he just wont let go of the heroin...
it is such an evil...Will he learn from this?????

Kids, DONT USE, you wont believe what it does to your parents

Unbelievable, Jack was on his third court date for stealing and I think the Judge would of given him a break but they made him take a piss test...HE FAILED..and he has been in jail now for two days.
He goes in front of the Judge again on Monday, that will be a total of  6 days in jail..maybe longer if he does not get out on Monday.
KIDS...DONT USE...I frigin love my son but I am so HAPPY he is in jail. I am at peace, I can leave
my pocketbook out. I JUST LOVE HIM NOT BEING HERE...and I hate having to say that..I really do.
Kids, heroin is evil and will destroy you and break your families hearts.

Anyways....loving the time off from having an addict living with me. I just pray it would stay like this...
Isn't that awful folks.........it is so awful living with an addict, I mean awful. It;s just me and my little dog now..I would love to have a real family, but heroin doesn't allow for that....  I pray the madness will all end, I really do.

Retraction from my last post, I DO have faith

hi, everything has been going wrong.  On my 4th frigging interview for this new job they informed me
they did not realize what i requested as my 'needed' wages and they could not afford to provide me that.
What a waste of time. And my son, we got ANOTHER court order for stealing, this time it was tents...
so in June he still has THREE court dates we just got done one.

Is he clean...well,...he is trying....but its not really working out that great...what an EVIL Heroin is.

But anyways...i have faith...i am going to bed early tonight and i will be apologizing and asking forgiveness in the God above for my lack of faith. i have faith..and i will be praying most of the night.
i just need a break a small miracle must come my way sometime.  Anyways...keep the faith and PRAY
PRAY PRAY,,,,I do believe

Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end. ~Author Unknown

Hi, I have taken a few days from writing in this blog. Well, I have to be honest folks,
I have given up on my faith. I have been praying for so long for so many years and the misery
is still all around me. My job, the rumors are that they will let go of three more people and I will be one of them. I went on a job interview, got my hopes up only to find out they forgot
to check my wage requirement and they can’t even come close to paying me what I currently make. I live paycheck to paycheck and with the bills I have have (mostly from my heroin addicted son) I can’t accept a job with that much less pay….guess I will just have to wait out
and see about the rumors at work.

My son…oh you won’t believe this…HE WAS ARRESTED AGAIN..yes AGAIN!
So, he has ONE shop lifting that he just got through (had to take a court ordered class)
he is done with that…now he has TWO MORE shop lifting cases and one case for getting caught using in a public restroom.

I HAVE to have the strength to kick him out at the end of June, I have no choice, my depression is so severe I am thinking daily of ending my life. I have to wait until that court date that I posted bond for, it’s the last week of June. I don’t want to owe on that bond
and I know if I kick him out now he will never make it to that court date and I will owe.

The story of my life….OWE OWE OWE….
And honestly folks…my crap about PRAYING and having faith..forget it…there is no higher
power…so…suck it up and deal with it …
Well,…this is about the last post I will write as no one is reading my blog anyways.

Have a wonderful holiday and be safe.

dope sickness: kids dont start:

HI, my son tried to come off the heroin and last nite he started the detox, he has gone through this so many times it is heart breaking to see such pain in another human being. He had good intentions but lied to me this morning about needing a ride to his new volunteer job, but all he did was get a ride closer to his dealer and he is using today. KIDS, DONT START, you can never imagine the pain you have to go through to get off of it.

 I am at my wits end just wish I had the guts to get in my car and drive away from him and from my hellish job.

Well, judgement day never happened yesterday....I am so ready for it, I was actually disappointed
it never happened.

I am still praying, still applying for jobs, still praying for some sort of miracle to come my way to get me
out of this purgatory stage of my life.

I also pray it happens SOON 

Kids, here is a comic script about addiction, though there is nothing comical about addiction, if you can not read it try clicking on the picks to zoom in or print it out

Parent of an Addict: What’s it Really Like?

Parent of an Addict: What’s it Really Like?